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May. 20th, 2005
Be careful who your roleplay
May. 20th, 2005 09:17 amAs I may have mentioned before I'm of the opinion that we go through life roleplaying. I don't know about you, but in the office, I'm the 'techie professional' but in the pub, i'm the slightly manic beer fiend.
Roleplay games, are just an extension of this. The only difference being, that in an RPG _you_ choose the character you play, rather than trying to guess based on everyone elses preconceptions.
In a roleplay game, as a rule, a character either turns into a pallid stereotype, and quickly becomes boring. Or it becomes a solid entity, that you can understand, perceive motivations and 'get into' as a character. There's some character archetypes that I just can't play. I think this is because I don't have sufficient 'empathy' for a trait, to develop it into anything more than the piece of paper and stats block.
Which leads me to an interesting thought. I've caught myself on a few occasions thinking like a different character. I'm sure most of the established roleplayers out there do this. Would it seem reasonable that the 'believable' characters, are ones formed from the stuff of your own psyche? When playing a priest character, you take some of they mysticism within yourself, and 'direct' it.
There's one simple difference between the pallid stereotype, and the 'real' characters. The latter will grow of their own accord. I've find myself thinking of things, and doing things, that I understand as perfectly logical, but I wouldn't do normally. And then, gradually, this characterisation feeds back a little. As though, by focussing on an aspect of my psyche, I'm allowing that aspect to evolve. Perhaps grow, perhaps diminish, or perhaps just change course.
My previous character at Maelstrom was something like this. Started off ok, but turned into something I didn't want to play. My current character, I'm enjoying immensely, as if something has 'meshed'. I can understand this character.
On one hand it's disturbing - the thought that if you RP a sadist, a bully or a thug, then you're extending somewhat that part of you, giving it light and life, rather than suppressing it. But on the other hand, it's a fascinating voyage of discovery. In much the same way as you explore the land near where you live in order to avoid getting lost, roleplay makes a wonderful tool for exploring the parts of you that you may have never been entirely sure were there.
As Sun Tzu put it, before facing your enemy, you must first know yourself. I rather enjoy getting to know myself.
Roleplay games, are just an extension of this. The only difference being, that in an RPG _you_ choose the character you play, rather than trying to guess based on everyone elses preconceptions.
In a roleplay game, as a rule, a character either turns into a pallid stereotype, and quickly becomes boring. Or it becomes a solid entity, that you can understand, perceive motivations and 'get into' as a character. There's some character archetypes that I just can't play. I think this is because I don't have sufficient 'empathy' for a trait, to develop it into anything more than the piece of paper and stats block.
Which leads me to an interesting thought. I've caught myself on a few occasions thinking like a different character. I'm sure most of the established roleplayers out there do this. Would it seem reasonable that the 'believable' characters, are ones formed from the stuff of your own psyche? When playing a priest character, you take some of they mysticism within yourself, and 'direct' it.
There's one simple difference between the pallid stereotype, and the 'real' characters. The latter will grow of their own accord. I've find myself thinking of things, and doing things, that I understand as perfectly logical, but I wouldn't do normally. And then, gradually, this characterisation feeds back a little. As though, by focussing on an aspect of my psyche, I'm allowing that aspect to evolve. Perhaps grow, perhaps diminish, or perhaps just change course.
My previous character at Maelstrom was something like this. Started off ok, but turned into something I didn't want to play. My current character, I'm enjoying immensely, as if something has 'meshed'. I can understand this character.
On one hand it's disturbing - the thought that if you RP a sadist, a bully or a thug, then you're extending somewhat that part of you, giving it light and life, rather than suppressing it. But on the other hand, it's a fascinating voyage of discovery. In much the same way as you explore the land near where you live in order to avoid getting lost, roleplay makes a wonderful tool for exploring the parts of you that you may have never been entirely sure were there.
As Sun Tzu put it, before facing your enemy, you must first know yourself. I rather enjoy getting to know myself.
Right, well, today's catch phrase, is 'fucking hell, 6 weeks!'.
You see, we have this storage update project. We're throwing out around 10Tb of storage, because it's come to the end of the lease, and replacing it. (With more).
We've done some preliminary discussion of the technology, and stuff, and came to a rough conclusion, that we'd be looking at about a 12 week time scale, with 1 month 'contingency' before the end of the lease.
Problem is, that was based on us placing the order mid march. An we didn't.
Today was the first design meeting for this project. There's about 3 weeks of design work before we get onto the implementation.
But some monkey in directorland, has signed off the contract, agreeing that we're going to return the 'old' kit, on the 1st of July. Or pay rather disgusting penalties. There is no way in hell this can happen. It's just not possible. We have 10Tb, across 30 _BUSINESS CRITICAL_ systems to migrate. It'd be tough with 12 weeks. Well, I suppose if we had a 2 week UK wide systems outage, it could be done. Ya'know, 'hello everyone in Alstom UK, yes all 55,000 of you, guess what, you get 2 weeks paid holiday'. Doubt that'll work either though, because some of these systems are internationally used.
Don't get me started with ranting about the grief of scheduling outages. Change control, informing 'key' people, including having to re-schedule, because they want to feel important, and that they have the powah to deny you.
And guess who's technical team leader? Oh yes, me. I asked the project manager to put me down as 'scapegoat' on the contact list.
Never mind, they can only sack me once I guess :). Our unoffical project time scale has us finishing mid-late august.
You see, we have this storage update project. We're throwing out around 10Tb of storage, because it's come to the end of the lease, and replacing it. (With more).
We've done some preliminary discussion of the technology, and stuff, and came to a rough conclusion, that we'd be looking at about a 12 week time scale, with 1 month 'contingency' before the end of the lease.
Problem is, that was based on us placing the order mid march. An we didn't.
Today was the first design meeting for this project. There's about 3 weeks of design work before we get onto the implementation.
But some monkey in directorland, has signed off the contract, agreeing that we're going to return the 'old' kit, on the 1st of July. Or pay rather disgusting penalties. There is no way in hell this can happen. It's just not possible. We have 10Tb, across 30 _BUSINESS CRITICAL_ systems to migrate. It'd be tough with 12 weeks. Well, I suppose if we had a 2 week UK wide systems outage, it could be done. Ya'know, 'hello everyone in Alstom UK, yes all 55,000 of you, guess what, you get 2 weeks paid holiday'. Doubt that'll work either though, because some of these systems are internationally used.
Don't get me started with ranting about the grief of scheduling outages. Change control, informing 'key' people, including having to re-schedule, because they want to feel important, and that they have the powah to deny you.
And guess who's technical team leader? Oh yes, me. I asked the project manager to put me down as 'scapegoat' on the contact list.
Never mind, they can only sack me once I guess :). Our unoffical project time scale has us finishing mid-late august.